The mummy brain has been in another place lately and without any new ideas of what to write about. It’s a little odd considering the many new things going on in my life at the minute; little smiles, little giggles, little yawns, little coughs…
Being a mother; it’s everything I never expected.
She’s now almost 6 months, 7680g and 66cm. Every day is a blessing, I still look at her like I did 6 months ago, stunned at how perfect she is, stunned at how much I love her. I often look at her when she is sleeping in my arms, and I get teary. I tear up because what I feel is so strong. I look at her and pray that she will always be happy and healthy. I worry about dying, about leaving her. I look at her and think about my mother who died when I was only 11. I now realize how hard it must have been on mom when she found out she was sick. I have been selfish, thinking it was harder on my sister and I.
I’m terrified of losing Lily, and of her losing us.
Today my husband and I have been together 7 years. Who would have thought that, that kiss, all those years ago, would lead to something so amazing, so perfect! I’m really blessed with a husband who respects and loves me, and a baby who rocks our world. I am proud to have a Brazilian daughter, a daughter that is full of life, love and culture.
Apart from family life, Brazil continues to deliver and I am still loving São Paulo.